My Birthday is at the end of this month. I so wish that it was on a different day. Who wants New Years Eve as their birthday? For as long as i can remember, everyone i know would rather be out partying than celebrating with me. I always figured it was because I wasnt old enough to really party. You know, the drinking and all that. But this will be my 21st. And still i cant get anyone to say that they will be there. I thought that after all these years that it wouldnt get to me, but it does. It wouldnt be a big deal, but i really miss my sister and nephew. Nearly 4 years have passed since they were killed in that awful accident, but my heart still bleeds as if it were yesterday. My sister and i had already planned out what we were going to do on my 18th and 21st birthdays. I miss her so much. I never told her but i looked up to her the most. She was always the reason i never got mixed up with anything too bad. She was always the one i told my biggest problems to. Anyway, i geuss i'll stop the self-pity party i have going.....